I'm so emotional today, that I want to cry all the time. I don't know exactly why, but I have some ideas. first of all, hormones. right? but other than that, today is my second U/S and I am scared and excited. I don't know what is going on my mind right now, but I feel like I can not eat, drink or think. all I can do is refreshing Facebook and twitter and kill the time. the worst part is I am at work and have to work. I called in sick the past 2 days first, because I felt like catching cold , and second, I couldn't concentrate and that wouldn't be fair that I just come to the work and refresh Facebook like crazy.
Besides, I am emotional about everything that is going to happen. should I stay here in this city alone until birth and then take the baby, go to my parents? or just go to my parents before birth and ditch work? I feel like I am absolutely alone in this city. I have couple of friends which I don't think they care that much and thats it. I need family. I need my parents. although I do not have so much friends in their city too. I wish we could all go back to my birth city and live there happily ever after, but that aint gonna happen. we moved on from that city. no return.
I'm dying here. literally dying. I want to see my baby healthy and big and cute. I can not wait this couple of hours to the appointment. I wish I could sleep and wake up 6 hours later. Im getting crazy :(
Its 2 days after those lines now. my little peanut was cute and healthy and adorable. the heartbeat was loud and clear. amazing. her/his little tows and fingers was visible and she/he moved a bit .
I am blessed and thankful and happy. cant wait to pass the first trimester with no complication and know the gender. I love my little peanut.
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