Although I don't see lots of chances this month, I'am a total wreck. I really don't know why. My mind is playing nasty games with me for sure, I am in a worst PMSing kind of mood you can ever imagine. and I get a 2ww brain again. That's a term I made up (here) when I was pregnant 3 years ago and man it's an accurate term describing my feelings. Today is only 5DPO and I have to wait at least till 9DPO for testing. Last time with my CP , it was never positive until 13DPO though, but that cycle doesn't count.
This time, its not waiting that makes it hard, its the whole daily life. its preparing the kid for daycare in the morning, dealing with work stuffs, dealing with all the feelings and things that happen every day, PLUS keeping TTC on the corner of your mind, try to eat healthy and try to plan wisely. Not being able to plan the near futures, like traveling and company dinners (that's totally an extra chapter ) is also making it even harder.
I don't wanna mention having the fear to be obliged to continue living like this for the unknown amount of time. Fear of failure, fear of disappointment and fear of not getting the result you want. I know people can advise me not to think about it all and live my life until it happens, and it happens healthy, and it happens happily, but thats just easy in theory. practically its always on the corner of your mind. until it resolves. No matter how much you try not to think about the elephant in the room.
BTW, can you try not to think about a giant elephant in the room , right now? come on, go on and NOT to think about it.
There, now you understand.
Showing posts with label Pregnancy Brain. Show all posts
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Friday, August 30, 2013
Two-Week-Wait-Brain
Have you ever heard of "Pregnancy Brain" ?
I haven't heard of that from any pregnant woman around me, just from TV shows and movies. So I searched a bit, and found out that the term really exists, but there is no such a thing as changing in brain's function during pregnancy.
People call the forgetfulness that happens sometimes during pregnancy the "Pregnancy Brain" , because sometimes pregnant women live in a different world. the body is here, the mind is wayyy into the future. So, that can cause some crazy acts like you put the car key in the fridge, and milk in the bedroom, or forget to lock the door when you leave the house. but who has never experienced such a forgetfulness in her\his life? I guess everybody ( men and women) has experienced it at least once, when lots of things are going in their minds or they are super busy. right?
So that's the same. Pregnant women are tired, they cant sleep well at night and they are planning everything in their minds all the time, so they can not be as sharp as they used to be. Nothing happens to the brain, they just daydreaming all the time.
Anyway, I think I have that Pregnancy Brain even before I am pregnant. I can't concentrate, I can't work, I only can sit for hours and read blogs and experiences about TTC and pregnancy and compare everything to my symptoms and conditions. Besides I do crazy things too.
Yesterday I spilled tea on my new mac at the office :( I turned it off and let it dry for couple of days. Now I'm working on a spare laptop.
That has never happened to me at work before. Of course this happens when you lay back on the sofa at home, and have your laptop on your lap and want to drink something at the same time, but it's so odd at the office. I blame that pre-pregnancy brain.
In fact I want to make up a term, two-week-wait-brain. how about that?
Today is 4DPO.
I haven't heard of that from any pregnant woman around me, just from TV shows and movies. So I searched a bit, and found out that the term really exists, but there is no such a thing as changing in brain's function during pregnancy.
People call the forgetfulness that happens sometimes during pregnancy the "Pregnancy Brain" , because sometimes pregnant women live in a different world. the body is here, the mind is wayyy into the future. So, that can cause some crazy acts like you put the car key in the fridge, and milk in the bedroom, or forget to lock the door when you leave the house. but who has never experienced such a forgetfulness in her\his life? I guess everybody ( men and women) has experienced it at least once, when lots of things are going in their minds or they are super busy. right?
So that's the same. Pregnant women are tired, they cant sleep well at night and they are planning everything in their minds all the time, so they can not be as sharp as they used to be. Nothing happens to the brain, they just daydreaming all the time.
Anyway, I think I have that Pregnancy Brain even before I am pregnant. I can't concentrate, I can't work, I only can sit for hours and read blogs and experiences about TTC and pregnancy and compare everything to my symptoms and conditions. Besides I do crazy things too.
Yesterday I spilled tea on my new mac at the office :( I turned it off and let it dry for couple of days. Now I'm working on a spare laptop.
That has never happened to me at work before. Of course this happens when you lay back on the sofa at home, and have your laptop on your lap and want to drink something at the same time, but it's so odd at the office. I blame that pre-pregnancy brain.
In fact I want to make up a term, two-week-wait-brain. how about that?
Today is 4DPO.
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