Friday, August 30, 2013

A perfect distraction is on it's way: A piano. I haven't had a piano since I moved out of my parents house. Can't wait to play, perfect timing. I guess it helps to distract myself from obsessing with symptoms and pregnancy for a while. we'll see.

Speaking of symptoms, I know it's way too early for having symptoms, but I crave for food badly. I know I'm a tiny food lover in general, but I think about food, chocolate even ice cream all the time. Can it be somehow related to changes in my body? or it's just a phase in life that people love foods more?

Two-Week-Wait-Brain

Have you ever heard of "Pregnancy Brain" ?
I haven't heard of that from any pregnant woman around me, just from TV shows and movies. So I searched a bit, and found out that the term really exists, but there is no such a thing as changing in brain's function during pregnancy.
People call the forgetfulness that happens sometimes during pregnancy the "Pregnancy Brain" , because sometimes pregnant women live in a different world. the body is here, the mind is wayyy into the future. So, that can cause some crazy acts like you put the car key in the fridge, and milk in the bedroom, or forget to lock the door when you leave the house. but who has never experienced such a forgetfulness in her\his life? I guess everybody ( men and women) has experienced it at least once, when lots of things are going in their minds or they are super busy. right?
So that's the same. Pregnant women are tired, they cant sleep well at night and they are planning everything in their minds all the time, so they can not be as sharp as they used to be. Nothing happens to the brain, they just daydreaming all the time.

Anyway, I think I have that Pregnancy Brain even before I am pregnant. I can't concentrate, I can't work, I only can sit for hours and read blogs and experiences about TTC and pregnancy and compare everything to my symptoms and conditions. Besides I do crazy things too.
Yesterday I spilled tea on my new mac at the office :( I turned it off and let it dry for couple of days. Now I'm working on a spare laptop.
That has never happened to me at work before. Of course this happens when you lay back on the sofa at home, and have your laptop on your lap and want to drink something at the same time, but it's so odd at the office. I blame that pre-pregnancy brain.
In fact I want to make up a term, two-week-wait-brain. how about that?
Today is 4DPO.

Thursday, August 29, 2013

This is useful: Surviving the two week wait.
It's one of the first five inks pops up in google search, but still worth mentioning.

We started to think about the little peanut about a year ago. but I reallllyyy wasn't ready, everything was too scary for me. finally this summer I've overcome my fears and started to try. Now I'm even more than ready but I'm not sure about the peanut tho ;)
I'm sitting behind my desk at work and instead of working, I'm reading the forums and websites. So I guess I'm going crazy. today is 3DPO, and at least 10 more days to go.
You know, if i get no BFP it's not the end of the world. I try next month. but this 2 weeks waiting is really the end of the world. I wish we could skip that right away. I'm kidding. I'll wait sanely. In fact I'm going to do some working and get things done here at work.
Ok, I really don't know what I'm going to write here, but apparently the TTC is damn hard ( emotionally) and the 2 weeks waiting is a pure torture. So I just decided to write more and think less. how about that?