Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Week 10, first serious US

I'm so emotional today, that I want to cry all the time. I don't know exactly why, but I have some ideas. first of all, hormones. right? but other than that, today is my second US and I am scared and excited. I don't know what is going on my mind right now, but I feel like I can not eat, drink or think. all I can do is refreshing Facebook and twitter and kill the time. the worst part is I am at work and have to work. I called in sick the past 2 days first, because I felt like catching cold , and second, I couldn't concentrate and that wouldn't be fair that I just come to the work and refresh Facebook like crazy.
Besides, I am emotional about everything that is going to happen. should I stay here in this city alone until birth and then take the baby, go to my parents? or just go to my parents before birth and ditch work? I feel like I am absolutely alone in this city. I have couple of friends which I don't think they care that much and thats it. I need family. I need my parents. although I do not have so much friends in their city too. I wish we could all go back to my birth city and live there happily ever after, but that aint gonna happen. we moved on from that city. no return.
I'm dying here. literally dying. I want to see my baby healthy and big and cute. I can not wait this couple of hours to the appointment. I wish I could sleep and wake up 6 hours later. Im getting crazy :(

Its 2 days after those lines now. my little peanut was cute and healthy and adorable. the heartbeat was loud and clear. amazing. her/his little tows and fingers was visible and she/he moved a bit .
I am blessed and thankful and happy. cant wait to pass the first trimester with no complication and know the gender. I love my little peanut.

Monday, December 2, 2013

Week 8, Maternity clothes

I bought my first maternity pants yesterday! I am so excited, and god they are sooo comfy.
I know it's too early but I have problem with my regular pants, nothing fits anymore. My pants are usually very tight, so they didn't have any extra space even for a bit of getting fat, but this is beyond "a bit" , I heard that some people show early and my belly was always the first thing in my body which showed I'm getting fat, but still it's a bit weird to me.
I don't care, I have my maternity comfy jeans, they make me happy :)

I can't wait for my next U/S. The little peanut is getting legs and arms now and they are super cute as I saw in other U/S pics. I have to wait 2 weeks though.

Friday, November 8, 2013

Week 8/9

I had the weirdest dream ever. I dreamt of the whole new perspective of my gender as I didn't know before. I woke up and I was sure that has something todo with baby's gender. I googled and it had! I mean, its like old wives tale, no one knows if its true, but the exact same dream exists when I google. Thats weird, right?
I will write the details here after I find out the gender. It will be fun if it's true :)
And I remembered I read that in this week the sexual organs are forming. They wont be visible yet, but they are forming.

This week was tough. I had a day and half of super good condition without any nausea or anything which made me panic. Then they came back to me again and I got happy again. One or 2 more weeks and then the HCG will drop, and the nausea will be gone. One or 2 more weeks to the better stuff. cant wait.

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Better safe than sorry

I know everybody says if you are too picky and overprotective you will hurt yourself more, but I can not help being picky with what I eat. I google every single new ingredient that I eat. And ask people in the restaurant : is your mayo home made? where is your yoghurt come from?
I'm driving people crazy I guess, and sometimes myself.
So this morning I wanted to make a tea at work, I went through all tea bags, earl-gray : too much caffein, chamomile-honey : I heard chamomile is not that good, cinnamon-ginger : heard cinnamon is not good at all, green tea-maple: I have no idea about maple, should I look it up?
So I ended up deciding normal black tea is the safest, I only should be careful about how much caffein I'll have the rest of the day.
I know at this point you are thinking to yourself: OMG, people are crazy. they cant have a life.
The truth is I know that I am being overprotective, I know that I'm acting like a picky obsessed person, but I can not imagine doing anything, ANYTHING harmful to the baby just because I think it should be fine. So at the end I think I'm doing the right thing, and it's always better to be safe than sorry.

Friday, October 25, 2013

Week 7, first U/S

I saw my little peanuts heartbeat and it was AMAZING. There was a teeny tiny heart inside me, beating. I can not describe my feeling. And I can not describe also how much I'm worried now that I know thats this tiny and vulnerable. its kinda scary.
The doctor said it seems like you are a worrier. I think he is right. It seems like I am.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Week 7 - symptoms

It hit me. All possible symptoms hit me right after 6 weeks! Nausea, dizziness, hot flashes, feeling faint and much more. The worst part is nausea, hot flashes and feeling faint, cause in that case I need to lay down, and its almost impossible at work. I really have no idea how people go to work in their first trimester, but it's not easy.
It reminds me of an episode of How I Met Your Mother where Lily said "this baby better to be very cute cause I feel terrible now" . Babies are always cute, so I guess that's always the deal. ;)

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

The world is full of surprises

I read some pregnancy stories and I'm in shock. I always thought it can be possible that somebody does something harmful during the pregnancy because she has no clue that this can not be safe. But I never ever thought people do know something is really harmful to the baby and they still do that.
I read tons of stories about people who enjoy smoking and can't quit during pregnancy. I honestly don't get it. How is it possible that you know it's dangerous for the baby and you still do it? I don't understand and I don't want to.
Frankly reading some pregnancy stories is like watching movies for me, I have a feeling that they are not real cause some of them are far too unrealistic. I guess I am just lucky to live in a part of the world that I had no experience as such around me. Thats why some of them seem really fictional to me.
I think I am really thankful for the awareness around me.